New move

First and foremost, Happy New Year! This new year is very symbolic to me cause well, its the first year i really can say im here im living life and fuck shit lets do shit up haha. I read my last years january post and yeh, i was still really just..blah haha. Shit, i didnt even post on new years and the first post i did have was still just...me being socially awkward lol. But now im mentally just in control so im ready to make shit happen this year! I have a lot of new years resolutions i intend to stick by so lets knock them off

1)Quit smoking, Its just one of the many parts of my personality that just...contradict with the rest. I come off as the happiest, and or the most confident and then i whip out a cig. So the girls i attract which are older or smart mature and independant are like..uh...okay? lol I used to see it as something to feind off the non-open minded people but you know what? an addiction shouldnt be the creator of that threshold. Its not cute dude. I proven my point, cigs are addictive and its not about will power, the addiction doesnt show itself unless i tell myslef im going to quit. lol. BUT compared to other people that have smoked for 3-5 years like i have, my ddiction isnt half as bad...im ready to take on this no-smoking january!

2)Fix my sleeping schedule. Ever since before i could remember, literally, ive had a bad sleeping schedule. If it wasnt because of meditation then its because i flat out like night better. I honestly enjoy night time so much more and everytime i go into a professional setting im mindblown by the shifts people do without sleep, its mind blowing to me because ive never had enough sleep to wake up at 4, go to work by 6 then leave at 5 and eat then sleep. It sounds ridiculous. Even when i did have a fixed sleeping schedule i didnt like it because everyday felt like the same old shit. I like sleeping whenever, waking up from 7-3pm and letting the day take me. But seriously thomas? grow up, be more reliable and become a man, life cant be just a obstacle course you monkey bar though anymore.

3)Do better in school! My goal is to juggle two jobs an internship and school. Since ive never been the most motivated guy when it comes to school i sometimes need a greater challenge in order to get me started on the ball. But most of the time the challenge is too great so i fall off and i get fucked over but eh lol lets do it!

3)Bulk. I need to be 160lbs!! Make that shit happen thomas! plain and simple

4)Find a girlfriend and stay for at least a month...come on thomas youre not a bad guy! Figure out why you can attract so many girls but why you cant tie the knot. sure it might be cause youre a weird ass mofo, sometimes lose the ability to communicate, and has low self esteem when it comes to this matter but just go with the flow, youre getting closer! Actually one of the reasons why i titled this New Move is because thomas, there is a moment and its a small window where a girl is looking for you to just go in and grab it no matter how impossible it may seem and how awkward it may fucking be go for it you dipshit. haa learn that new move!

5)Get my license. Needless to say, my swag is very incomplete without it. What the fuck are you waiting for thomas?

6) Keep your head up! Thanks to the grad student i noticed that i almost forgot my most prized attribute, making complete eye contact when shes talking to you. For some reason i started to become a shy person and thats the last thing i am! I also have this bad tendency to run away from my problems when its academic i try to pretend like it doesnt exist and all that does is make matters worse and i keep hiding until i hit rock bottom because my whole life begins to spiral. TAKE YOUR FUCKING LIFE BY THE HORNS THOMAS!

edit: 7) This is always on the back of my head, and i never try to admit it to myself but thomas, stop thinking about death. Itll happen when it happens so no need to brace yourself or get prepared or anticipate it. For someone so motivated and amped all the time about living youre awfully excited about death..

Thats my list, there may be more cause i was organizing them while watching the fireworks with tfk :P. I looked so ridiculous on new years. I was completely suited up and i looked stupid. Nobody was wearing a suit and most of the night i was alone. If anyone was any good at reading body language they would see that i was DESPERATE for a new start. haah. I was tempted to put "be more douchebaggy" but i dont want to be that..my nice personality is the minority and when the time comes ill be better than the rest. I just need to wait. I should not forcefully change something that doesnt need to be changed because shit, i love me. Me being nice has gotten me respect from my friends, the hood, and all types of networks. On new years chris made me realize how diverse i am Even in college i do what i did in highschool. I was with international friends, then we hung out with my ghetto asian friends, but then i have black friends, white friends, hispanic friends, mixed cultural friends. Why, because im not a douchebag. People like nice guys, they just dont date them. lol. Well, my point in being is there are people in this world dumb enough to be republican so there sure fucking are ridiculous people fucking douchebagish enough to get off on fucking with someone physically, financially, mentally and emotionally. Im going to make it so that these fucking douchebags, no matter if theyre in the army *cough ben* or in some other college, they hear my name, and know of me. Im going to run this bitch. I might not be great at money, and i might not have anything going for me right now seeming that my grades are shit, but life..has a way of moving. haha and i believe that. First step is this internship next semester, im not as far off as anyone thinks. Im not shooting to be the next issac newton or anything, just a prestigious average or slightly above average income man with bomb communication skills and insane networking abilities. Everyone will work with me and like me...except you guys. You guys will just wish you were me:] im very spiteful when it comes to revenge *cough huy* *cough nate* You two have seen it and you fucking laughed right until i snapped then you crawled behind the next available objects...youll definitely be smited for life haha. Thats my new years resolution. DEUCES! cause i keep shit FIRM.

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"Photoshoot fresh, looking like wealth
Im about to call the paparrazi on myself"

Fuckin fresh enjoying a beer blasting my songs raving disassembling my baby and cleaning the parts waiting for skyrim to download. I feel so good right now.