Last night

Was fuckin crazy. ahha i was practicing pool. Anh texted me and was like we should hang out and i ended up giving up those plans for more practice cause i was really trying to work on my draw. BTW for some reason i naturally learned how to masse. LOL now that im starting to use my cue again and really getting serious when i play so im excited to see im picking up things along the way. Of course i told myself...i cant believe i just gave up plans with a girl for pool...haha but you know im going with the flow, i was definitely pumped to make up for it the night of.

Which is exactly what happened! I took alot of shots bro. then i smoked up the dealer and some bros and we had a blast haha. It was the first party of the semester i wanna say so i wanted to make it awesome. This experience with weed was COMPLETELY opposite than the last one. I was reallly laid back and my mind was empty but my swag was on blast. This dude was actually getting pissed cause i was close to taking his "girl" and her friends all home with me LOL i guess what happen was theyre fuck buddies or something? it was way too easy for me to talk her up for her to be taken. And well at the end of the night they saw me and arthur getting into the car and i was like...we got a ride..and shes like yeah sure! and the guys like no thats okay. and they grab the cab that miraculously popped up from nowhere. There was alot of potential last night but there was no after party! haha me and arthur ended up chilling in the car and i was really happy, i felt myself smiling lol. Not a single Fuck was given last night. and i felt arthur getting wacked out and im like..what..what are you doin bro? and he was mad that he didnt pick anyone up...which was when i was like....wtf? i look in the passenger seats and were the only ones in the car! everyone left the party and walked. even chris and hes crippled. lol. I dont understand why noone followed us to the car but eh..at the end i got a ride home happy as fuck at like 5am and knocked ut until 5pm. now im at home bored as shit and i cant believe they are partying again. LOL im like...yeah ima sit out tonight. There were alot of attractive girls there but surprisingly i was only interested in the taken ones cause only the taken ones were hot. yeah im a douchebag lol.

But hey i put bros first and like for the dude that said hed rather take the cab i didnt say anything and was like hey, do that you gotta do, enjoy your night..even though you have two other average girls behind your hot girl. I shrugged it off and was just really just content. haha

anywho enough of that mess..cause thats exactly what it is..a mess. lol My life is back...and better!! yay! starting a job monday...got several applications for internships sent registered for courses im freakin stoked haha. I cant waste NO more time. holy shit on rice. Getting my fake soon. My life will soon be the best its been in honestly...ever. Will my fake and my internship i finally am taking that step that connects present me to future me. along with my stable and higher paying job and classes...you dont understand for a man like me that gets off on productivity..im stoked. lol Once this is all in gear...give it a month. Study for my permit while thats in motion and id say the next time i put my head back in the game would be after i take the permit test...that sounds fair. Unless another girl pops into my life..

I unfortunately lost touch of tfk. Sometime within this past two weeks i guess we just stopped texting and i forgot to text back...so i tried today and well..didnt get a response yet *shrugs* were just friends so ill just wait for when i see her in the poolroom again.

This girl, that i should not quite name yet because shes quite the interesting one. She added me as a friend and every so often we have all out conversations on each others wall. She wants to grab some cannolis, but i told her since im working as of next week and scheduling meetings with several of my mentors to tell them i havent died and am doing great itll be hard to find any time. lol i have mostly am shifts...like fucking..6am shifts. Goddamnit thomas LITERALLY my first shift is a 6am shift. wtf. lol.

Oh not to mention everyone in revolve(im friends with everyone in the dancecrew) really wants me to audition again. Ive never performed before and actually believe it or not i have really bad stage fright lol. Youd think a crazy outgoing guy like me would be the same when a group of people are watching but noo. So ive never performed...after 5th grade cause everyone performs in elementary school, whether it is mary had a little lamb or top hit christmas songs but thats besides the point. I went into the first revolve practice high because i thought okay...i dance all the time when im high thats what i do lol. like last night i was doing shit up. aha but yeah i completely failed during audition. Alot of the talented revolve crew members, such as kanji, has seen me dance before high and idk if im good or not but kanjis like...you should audition lol. Itd be a blast, i think. but that would make my schedule even more busy! haha its one of my to do's before leaving college though, learn how to dance good enough to just freestyle. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rn90iyutb7I&list=LLdhZIHj5DkWk8xZthCr7Bng&index=2&feature=plpp_video I love this chereo! the music is great and the chereo is so creative! one of my favorite parts starts at 2:10 ish the tuting is sick and what they do with the drop is so badass haha the entire thing is awesome ahha

So i have alot on my plate..figuratively but not literally. I remember when i was trashed i was talking to some girl and this...tank...just comes and butts in. i dont rmemeber what i was talking about but i was enjoying the conversation and immediately sobered up when i saw her cause she looked like..uh.only i was thinking wait im drunk how the hell can she still be so fucking ugly. LOL but she asked one question, "Do you watch jersey shore?" and im like Yeaa BUDDY lol. and shes like i knew it! you seem guido like. and i didnt know whether or not to take that as an insult or a compliment but i smiled and was like...cool beans! you know haha. To be honest i havent watched that show in a very long time cause it gets boring you know? its fun getting to know how stupid each character is and the characterization is fun but after you know that then the reality show, to me, is just plain ol drama..and there is no such thing as "good drama". Thats my motto lol. but yeah thinking about it now id take that as a compliment i guess. I make sure im a fresh ass mother fucker and she just called me ripped so hey i havent been to the gym in a long time and for a hefty chick to call a skinny asian dude like me ripped hey pound it.wurd. If im a guido that also means im obnoxious but yeah i am...im a family man sure i am. And im a complete and utter douchebag. Sure! i guess haha im pretty bro im not going to lie. I mean im a fuckin pushover with ladies but when im with the dudes im such a bro. lol UNLESS i just heard things cause i was really fuckin baked. lol hey i could imagine awesomeness when im baked too :P Lauren do i come off as a guido? lol

Umm well other than that i guess im going to sleep haha again..feels like i woke up only several hours ago since i woke up at 5 fucking pm today...i missed ALL of the sunlight lolol

Edit: im beginning to understand why relationships and i just dont work. Ive been in three but ive never actually gotten into a relationship after a chase before. I dont know how to treat a girl if it wasnt just a natural chemistry. True story. I guess thats why i was so surprised with theresa cause i coulda sworn it was natural but hell. You can say i know nothing about the game, essentially. i talk a lot about it but i know nothing of it. I dont understand how and why guys would ignore a female they are interested in and somehow after ignoring them and play hard to get enough the girl sticks with him and the guy either continues to be a douchebag or becomes the nice guy? idk. Nor do i get the reasoning behind the test of patience to be the thing that gets you with a girl when during the relationship its about trust. I see relationships which work like that, which quite frankly is all relationships these days, i see them as so unhealthy. Ughh i cant stand the game. Thats why i try to stop playing haha. I mean it seems like what i have to do is treat girls like nothings in my life and the flock onto my dick. Ive seen it happen but why would i want to do that? such a surfacey way of looking for a girl and honestly i dont want a girl that must come on her knees for me, i dont care how hot she is it makes woman look pathetic and yet women insist on playing this role or else they dont want to be with you. Who the fuck ok'd this behavior? Idk apparently my way of playing the game has utterly failed but i refuse to degrade a female im interested in. it completely ruins the prize. I wish to trump the game one day. To win by lack of competition lol. im going to win by simply being awesome. I just dont understand females...You want to be treated like nothing but then you want to be treated like a princess? uhh ima just wait for a girl that knows wtf shes doing lol