phoneblog!

This will be the first time i ever blogged via my phone. Haha i came on campus after work cause i was exhuasted and when im exhuasted i dont need to sleep, i just need to see friendly faces. Right when i got on campus eustis called me and me and him walked around for 40 mins looking for food then we settled at uhop cause nowhere else was open that accepted husky dollars. I ended up missing the last train so i was like whatever the last bus comes ten minutes after the last train....it never came...so now im at my friends place bored haha.

I was honestly thinking about quitting anf today cause i was thinking about her and why she would ignore me..then i realized she probably read that i called her the stupidest girl on my blog lol sorry i didnt mean it so literally i just didnt like how you kept rejecting me and for a guy trying his best i thought my blog would be a safe place to vent... hope nothing will be awkward the next time we meet cause im never awkward :D but im glad youre reading my blog. Lol i just sometimes forget who might be reading it...i always just assume from time to time its lauren but its mostly for myself. It helps improve my memory. Lol anywho if you are still reading my blog that means amends may be an option. Im very sorry haha i didnt mean it seriously...and i have serious commitment problems so for me to even let myself become attracted to you and give you my blog was a insanely gigantic step...maybe too big. Shrugs* other than that i cant figure out why the sudden disapperance.

It actually feels weird everyday cause i used to only text you and now that i dont my phone is just..forver fully charged and just an ipod for a poor selection of music. I hate all the music on my phone! Blah! Well thats a lie but i dont have music to share, i always listen to pretty slow songs...close to meditation music haha. Thats nothing i can blast on speakers so my phone is pretty much just a brick for the most part...

I had the chance to play dan today he fucking destroyed me..i was so pissed and i needed to go to work and i got super competitive cause i know i can beat him on my a game...at least give him a hard time. Hes so freakin intimidating thoguh...im like the gohan and hes vegeta and fuckin bochen is goku. I learned the proper form and proper fundementals for every aspect of pool underneath them and now danny is finally back even though he graduated. Danny mike ray and bochen are known as the top 4 i already beat mike...ray gave up on pool but he used to be as good as bochen fuckin danny was the weakest link but was was always too nub to vs him and now he leveled up ridiculously. I cant wait for next semester. So fucking excited. Bochen and danny are coming back on campus and they plan to teach me all they know since im at a teachable level to them now haha then their going to graduate and hopefully ill be the best billards player at neu. FUCK YES there will still be competition though...but alot less cause everyone is graduating ehehe buwahaha. Freakin arthur wanted to play him though just to experience it and i couldnt tell him to fuck off since hes my bro so i just went to work distraught. Arthur is the friend ive been trying to teach and the one i got to rage quit so he wouldnt even see the difference between me and dan cause he hasnt gotten through the basics of positioning yet...but w?e i had to go to work. I cant wait for the pool tournement tomorrow grrr dan is fucking mine. I cant wait until arthur gets better though too he has alot of potential and he has the heart for it i need new competitive to improve so im really trying to get comfortable with my skills so i can properly teach him lol. Luckily he needs help on positioning more than shooting cause i cant teach shooting for shit. Anywho billards is starting to subsitute for the lack of longboard in my life and im not complaining. Grr. Cleaning the table in one turn for these guys are only the beginning of the game. Haha

That was a really long rant on pool haha as you can tell, i need something to kill me even more empty life now. I have classes sure but im milking them like w/e it really is no problem.

im going to sleep noww going to wake up early and fucking play pool before anyone else gets there so i can play alone. Problem with going early though is there is still alot of people that want to play me and they bother me and end up not helping me practice cause they are too nubbie. Haha sorry just stating facts pool is a amental game so it bloats my ego. Haha