opposites but attracted

Ive been listening to alot of dream theater and just really seriously inhaling oxygen feeling it in my lungs and enjoying this stable moment in my life. Im so grateful for the world around me because its rare that there is a period of time where my life is steady and leaning more to the happy side. I went to my favorite spot today with big thomas and lily billy and we sat there for what seemed like more than an hour. Where is my favorite spot? the waterfront at night all the way out on the dock past fanuel hall. The sky and view and weather is always beautiful there and we just sat silent and just...enjoyed. alot of happy moments happened there...all the dates i take girls on must go there at least once if im truely interested. that way that spot for me is nothing but pure when i step on that dock and enjoy the breath of fresh air. ive had countless life epiphanies in the past just sitting there enjoying several cigs for however long i feel...i could stay there for hours. As you can tell, im much more focused on the finer beauties of life now and i sincerely cherish them because life is always changing and i would hate it if i enjoyed it like this forever haha if i was always happy there would be no change so when it happens, it is all the sweeter. It made me think of her. I intend to take her to the waterfront one day if she hasnt been yet.

Ive learned to conversate better again and umm weird thing is my pool skills are lacking hard but ehh. I know why though. More controversy lies in my life but it confuses me in a positive way...but any type of confusion throws off my pool game haha.

funny story:
I went to a party recently and it was as if it was meant to be...i got there late cause of work and when i saw my friends i immediately tried to go to them but for some reason there was an obstruction in my path. It was a girl sitting down drunk and i accidently like..shoved my crotch several times into her head cause i was trying to walk and wondering why i couldnt lol she looks up like...wtf???? i apologize and try to hug it out she pushes me away like who the fuck are you? so i dap her and shes like..okay haha and she forgives me. I go talk to my friends and lala in the end me and her get very nicely acquainted. after several jagerbombs and jelloshots we talk dance and have fun lol we were the only two dancing but we were having fun...the night went on as if it was meant to be and we had fun we ended up leaving the party together sitting down and just trading info and talking for an hour...then she leans in and we made out. girl took the initiative...so sexy haha. Shes really bad at texting so we text once a day to each other max and she wants me to go to bu this weekend...oh what to do. lol she sounds like a typical party girl but we clicked and shes clearly someone more than the drunk girl that was in front of me cause we drunk bonded. idk...i dont want to ruin what ive built with theresa i dont have that bone in me. I find it okay to hook up with someone if you like someone else because you know where your heart belongs...or hook up with two girls you dont have feelings for...but to hook up with two girls im are attracted to....thats against my morals.

Me and theresa are better than ever. Shes putting her 50% in and every time she comes into work...it doesnt matter how tired i am i wake up and im able to work for hours on end again. Shes been purposely coming into work an hour early to study but its nice to see her because i usually have to leave eaxctly when she gets in haha idk what to do with this other girll. i woke up the morning after, glad i didnt go back to bu with her but the night lingered in my mind...its like wow..she compleely took me off my feet cause it just... worked..A girl that doesnt like that game just like me. Fascinates me. youre attractive you think im attractive cool. Lets go outside and talk: youre functional drunk and i am too cool. You can hold a good conversation and we have similar interests too perfect thats good enough to make a move. Of course the sober conversation afterward was freakin awkward. From the little that we text i could tell that she didnt really like my sense of humor sober and i honestly know nothing about her sober day to day self. So it makes it easy to not think of her. Funny thing is she studies med too...humm who woulda known i would be attracted to med students?

Anywho..im just going to go with the flow :] and right now im really happy with theresa :]