Sanity Under Cover of Darkness

Some might question it lately. lol. Its just that im showing more emotion than usual, dont ask why cause idk. I have a shorter temper, my friends seen me quiet and chilling just alot more lately, and ive gotten the "Hey, Are you okay?" question more than once haha. Saturday i only had 3 hours before work so i legit sat outside and smoked in one spot..straight chilling for two hours. Several of my friends past by me multiple times and was like wtf why are you still here? XD

Speaking of which i finally met someone cool and chill. Quite flattering actually, she came up to me when i was chillin for two hours and said she saw me sitting here for a bit and she needed a lighter so might as well try to ask me. She ended up asking me for my number and we've been texting consistently since. She is kinda a clash of the cute completely friendly nora and a punk rocker. haha. Pretty cute, cool. Unfortunately, not my type. lol. Her name? Kim Deng. Eh, i think shes a freshman and english major. I asked her to hang this friday. Lets see what she says *shrugs*

So, Under Cover of Darkness is the strokes new single! and the rest of their album is out in a week! SO FUCKIN ST(r)OKED lol im actually going to buy the physical disk. Cause i <3 them.

umm on a completely different topic, my social network is hitting its limit, due to my physical looks. Its rather offensive. Ive had girls say to me to my face im sorry your just so small! haha cause i hang out with doug and harrison. Its kinda why i go to the gym so much. Me and my friend Jason were talking about this. American girls are so much more anal about physical appearance compared to asians. lol. It's w/e i would never be interested in close minded tricks. lol.

I think im getting my short temper from going to the gym so much the testosterone is flowing and from the first time i went to the gym three weeks ago my body, even though unnoticable has skyrocketed strength wise. In every category ive uped at least 50 lbs. when i was using the fly machine i started with 70-100. 115 was my top and id use 115 to just do 5 sets of 2. Now i warm up at 115 and idk my max, when im warmed up im pumping 125. i lost about 7 lbs so now im only 130lbs. i need to go to the gym more often late at night, that way i can use the free weights without feeling like shit cause everyone in the free weights room are gorillas. I leave gym gym not fully satisfied now because i cannot burn out anymore. My body only gets really warmed up using machines and thats it, i dont get tired or just completely drained like i cant lift 5 more lbs. I want that feeling but it never happens..its time to go to free weights. Squats, deadlifts and benchpressing :]

Im always exhausted to, im trying really hard to push my body to its physical limit just so that i get that feeling but its not happening lol. Makes me happy that i still cant hit it but at the same time i just wanna go home and feel like a completely deserve a 10 hour night sleep. But talking about sleep is making me sleepy. maybe i should go take a nap for an hour until work.

Today will be the first time ive ever skipped a college class..and for work..idk why im doing it but it feels right. So thats what im going to do. Its okay though im acing that class regardless lol.

well what else? Feeling a bit lonely, for the most party all the parties i go to now just involve me drinking the night away every so often saying hi to someone new. I think im getting tired of partying again. lol well going to take a nap!