Words

Sometimes they are unnecessary. Im looking into a style of displaying my thoughts without actually saying anything, or much. I was talking to my mentor recently in a very casual manner and we were talking about interviews. She gave a very flattering compliment saying that i was charismatic person. This was one of the best compliments ive ever received because i feel like with charisma, a person can go anywhere. with the understanding that one can convince and or just simply communicate with others in a deeper way it can create opportunities to grow every other aspect of one's personality. Without other people in this world to bounce ideas off of even the most self-efficient and introverted person can only do so much. Anywho, I kinda wanna further sharpen my charisma because well, maybe that way i dont have to keep hopping from click to click and just be friendly with all of them.

For some reason Cung still haunts me though..every time he hangs out with someone i used to hang out with...they become distant and change. Idk. I guess that makes Cung better to hang out with? i dont see how haha but its w/e. If im not in the library then im with chris and doug elsewhere so i dont even bother with curry anymore. Im guaranteed no one to sit with now thanks to cung cause he stole my last groupie..and i saw him hawk eyeing them ever since first semester..trying to sit with them but i used to always sit with them. haha i guess the transformation happened at the end of first semester when i was in the library 24/7. o well. lol now i walk past them and sometimes they dont even wave. cung is at the other end of curry and they stand up and go like.."CUNG!!" *waves* ahaha..i used to be him but i laugh at him...he can bask in all my shitty friends :D Haha its funny, im still trying to be friends with him again but hes pulling a huy. o well.

anywho, I apologize for my last post. I looked pathetic. Never again lol. I actually carried around three packs of cigs those...4 days..killed 2 and down to my last one on my third one..crazy. Good news is nobody noticed haha. i just want to apologize because that was me just saying fuck the world and fuck my life. *shrugs* its more of a apology to myself. lol.

I've been hitting the gym alot lately, mostly because of puerto rico but i realized i feel really good when my muscles feel sore the next day and my range of movements are cut by 50% lol. It actually feels really good like a stretch you cant outstretch.

Fucked up thing about PR, Im not going! im actually really disappointed in tammy and sabat, i expected if not anyone else..them two to follow through. but i texted tammy the day after i saw her status saying "just booked my flight to PR so exicted!!" and said, should i book my ticket now too? apparently they already finalized the booking without me...thats so fucked up. Pretty much they said we dont want you with us..well..tammy and sabat pretty much said that to my face..w/e. Im mad cause sabat texted me asking if i was going to the gym every..like..4 days.

Im tired..My life is back to being stable...sorta...HARDLY work..once this whole week and it just HAD to be saturday night. fuck..and i have a morning class that day. Just so happened that that is my Only morning class. geez. Well, i like productive days so if i get enough rest after i go to the gym, saturday might all go for the better :]

I got a B- on the class i completely SLACKED on! not bad. lol. i was going to pop champagne if i got above a solid B. haha. but i guess i slipped by. God..never again. I pulled a allnighter and worked until 1230 the next day making up all the assignments. now im making up all the assignments for the other class. blah.

Im getting tired and i really need to focus..so til next time!